Completion and the Black Marks

I finally–possibly for the first time ever–completed an entire list of things to do.  There’s an incredibly satisfying feeling to putting a long, black mark across an action you’ve taken.

I’m learning that, really, I love those black marks.  Moreover, it feels really good to look at a day and see that it is full of black marks.  Frequently, the reason I can’t get those black marks is because I procrastinate in a very strange sort of way.  It’s not very… “I’ll do it later.”  It’s more like, “Well, because of x, y, and z I can’t function and do ‘a’ and ‘b’.  Therefore, once x, y, and z line up, I will do ‘a’ and ‘b’.”  Though certainly, there are points where that is very true, there are other points where that is very wrong, and I don’t do ‘a’ and ‘b’ because I’m scared or lazy.

For example, today, I needed to order the bingo balls and the new exercise video.  It’s not that I was terrified of asking, but I was afraid that my department wasn’t important enough to even approach the administration about such a minute thing as “Can I use the card to pay for this?”  Thus, paying for the videos was not accomplished until about 4:40.  It was one of the most satisfying feelings in the world, though.

I think, especially around the residents, I need to be professional, clear, and tactful.  It’s very easy to become intimidated thereby becoming sloppy, less precise, boyish even.  And although it’s cute, it doesn’t accomplish the task and the residents become either frustrated or confused.  Neither being a result we want.

john.

Garden Clubs!

Well, today has been an excellent day of working.  Today I was able to get a lot done as far as planning out St. Patrick’s day.  It was nice working in the morning, I feel like my mind was real sharp.  Real bright.  Now that the afternoon’s kicked in I feel a little more tired.   So I’m glad I worked this morning.

Okay, well as for some new ideas.  I feel like, having a calendar is super handy, but I need like a big white board.  Just something to write ideas on and to erase as I deal with them. There’s just so many ideas floating around in my brain and I feel like the best thing to organize them would be to just get them on a space and then just delete them as they get taken care of.  And whatever’s been there a while still gets dealt with instead of getting forgotten.

A regular thing to establish in B might be a regular craft or a regular gardening session.  I also thought of the cooking show.  Which would obviously be fun in both buildings but I feel like B really needs the most attention.

I also figured that I really tend to focus more on B when I’m there, so sometimes I need to do my brainstorming and paper work over there in order to think with the mindset of B in mind.  Otherwise I’ll always design for B with the motive for A.

john.